I was in an altered state during the procedure, calm and relaxed. I had the best dentist, chosen for me. I entered the first level of shock 15 minutes after the procedure, in the waiting room. I allowed it to move through my body, teary and shaky, not needing to stuff it down. I shock my body out and grounded back into the Earth. The next layer of shock revealed itself 26 hours later and this was a big one.

My body shook uncontrollably with the pain that I had carried for a lifetime, the burden of so much weight of lineage, the limits that trauma had placed on me and how much it had sabotaged my own divine experience of being embodied in my human space.  I cried like a baby, allowed myself to be held, crumbling to the ground. I wasn’t feeling sorry for myself, I was feeling empowered and chose to surrender to the divinity that had kept me alive for the 52 years thus far. I spent the next two days in and out of meditation, in and out of life really, with Pachelbel's “Canon” on repeat, anchoring my physical so that I could be attuned to the new energy that I had known would come one day.

During this initiation of sorts, I healed and released all that my life had been, I sobbed like a baby for the human that was being transformed, tears for my human’ness that would be forever altered. I received two very important Spiritual gifts: a golden chain of 5 links, dropped in through my Hara Chakra and my Spiritual Name, Elaya.

And so I am, Elaya Jane!

I am still Jane, I was always Elaya, I am still committed to living as a human, but I can now move freely between realms, accessing higher truths and living in divine alignment. The mission given to me was to teach other people how to gain their own unique freedom and if they chose to, move beyond limitations, and join the unrestricted dimensional reality that I now enjoy.